Girl Problems

This post was supposed to have gone up in December, but it never did so I’m posting it now.

This post is pretty personal just to let you know, like about female health issues. I know it’s 2013, but that still makes some people uncomfortable ha.

This year has had a lot of ups and downs. I’m not going to go over all of them right now, but I’m just happy I made it through the year in one piece. I feel really positive about the upcoming year and hope that I can really make some changes for the better in my life.

I know my last post about depression was a bit jumbled, but I think things are starting to get a bit better. I did some research and it turns out the birth control I take Jolessa, which is kind of like Seasonique where you don’t get a period for 3 months, can have some pretty intense side effects. Some of which involve anxiety, mood swings, mild paranoia, and depression. That pretty much hits the nail on the head for me. I am not surprised to be honest. I am on birth control because I may have endometriosis. Over the summer and fall I was having issues with very painful cramping, cysts and growths on my ovaries, and missing my periods for months at a time. So my doctor decided to give me the hormone provera to jump start my period so I could get a ultrasound. The first time I took it I had no problems whatsoever, but then I had to take it again in order to start birth control and I basically went insane. I was taking it so I could get the Depo-Provera shot because that helps a lot with endometriosis, but since the provera itself gave me such severe effects I decided not to take the shot. So I have been on the Jolessa for about two months now and over the last two months the anxiety and depression have been worsening. So I decided to stop taking it and see if maybe that will help and also keep me from having to go back on anti-depressants.

I really am hoping that I can begin to get over this depression and anxiety with the aid of therapy. I would really like to focus on more positive things. One thing I’d like to do more of on here is makeup tutorials. I got a lot of makeup and a book on how to do different kind of eye makeup styles. So I think that would be something fun to do.

Since writing this I did stop the birth control and my depression has definitely decreased.

Makeup Tutorial

So I’m stuck in the house because of the surgery and mainly I’m stuck in my room so I figured I do a post showing you guys how I do my makeup. I’m not so great with doing videos so I’m just going to write out what I’m doing and throw in some pictures.

first things first this is me with no makeup, just to warn you.

So in order to make myself not look like a corpse I usually use lotion and then primer before applying foundation. I am out of primer though so just the lotion will have to do. Right now I am using Vitamin E Moisture Cream from The Body Shop.

After applying the lotion I put on Revlon Photoready Airbrush mousse makeup in 010 vanilla. I always use a brush to apply my foundation.

After applying the foundation I use a Maybelline concealer in fair under my eyes because I have pretty bad dark circles. Next I apply pressed powder for shine control. I use Rimmel London Stay Matte 001 Transparent ( in case you haven’t noticed yet I’m pretty pale.)

At this point I also apply my eyeshadow primer, I use Urban Decay Eyeshadow Primer Potion. Next I apply blush to the apples of my cheeks, to do this just smile really big and apply where it is roundest, I also applied bronzer over the blush and on my T-Zone. For the blush I used Maybelline Fit Me! In light rose, I also used the fit me bronzer in sunlight which is their lightest shade. Next came the fun part, curling my eyelashes!

After that I applied mascara, right now my favorite is Rimmel London’s Scandaleyes Lycra Flex mascara. For eyeshadow I used two different palettes one from Urban Decay

I know they still make this one it just has a different look, and one from Too Faced.

First I applied the Poodle Puff Pink form the Too Faced palette up to the crease.

Next I apply the Cherry color from the Urban Decay palette up to the brow.

After that I applied a dark purple from Almay into the crease.

After that I used a loose shimmery purple and blended the whole thing up to the brow.

I put a violet eyeliner along the water line and a liquid liner along the lash line and finished with some lip balm.

Nail polish fun time!

Soo bought this nail art kit from H&M awhile ago.

I tried it out today because I’m super bored. The stencils work really well. I think my fingers look kinda funky, but here’s a picture anyways.